Wake me up in time for California

New journal!!

2007-07-11T19:31:21Z

Hey I decided to make a new journal.. this one is ancient and I needed a fresh journal for a number of reasons
So please add me on this one queen_polarkeet and I'll add you back :)

yeah. I'm burying this journal D:

Calarts

2007-03-21T19:42:37Z

I got in.
I found out Saturday night right before the session. Dad called and said I'd recieved a package with a big pink ribbon that said 'congratulations' on it. I was crying all night.. everybody was congratulating me and hugging me. I've never had so many deep conversations with people lol. I truly have the most wonderful friends.
I'm still in shock. SUCH odds were stacked against me. This is the first time I've ever applied to college. I just can't even believe this is happening. I'm actually going to be recieving the art education I've dreamed about for -years- ..it's so unreal. I know I'm going to have to -bust my ass- to survive, but you know what, I wouldn't dream of disappointing these people, myself, or my friends and family.
Everything has fallen into place, finally. I have everything I've ever wanted and needed right now.
And Shane and I are moving in together.. our own place. I can't even begin to describe how happy that makes me.
It's just amazing. I've never seen my parents so proud of me since 1st grade, when I was getting Honor Roll lol

Anyhow. Helio Sequence is having a show tonight at the Echo.. I'm super stoked. I finally have the option of attending their over 21 shows. I'm driving tonight, so no drinks.. but I will dance my pants off

Little help plz?

2006-10-02T00:24:19Z

Ok. someone asked for a commission from me on devart. I've never done a commission. I don't know the first thing about charging people money.. i draw for fun :/ So... I said I'd do $15 for a single character sketch and for a colored piece (depending on size) they start at $25. Said person notes me and says she wants two colored images with two characters, and one colored image with one character. I said I'd do it all for $65, and that I'd probably watercolor them and send the originals. I told her to send me refs and she sends me BLACK AND WHITE photos for her characters (her horses irl) and then gives me a long winded desc. of the other character. Now she says she wants all of these as anthros with detailed bgs... and the works. Not to mention she lives very very far and because I know nothing of commissions and or shipping costs I can't afford to do shipping.. I'd only be making like $40 for three 9x12 fully watercolored pieces.
I would really appreciate any insight... anything I can tell this girl? She's commissioned some really famous DA people.. and I don't want to be judgemental or take advantage of the situation, but I know she has money and I have a feeling she's trying to screw me.
Anything would be appreciated right now.. are these fair prices? not? What is my stuff worth? Is there some kind of commission FAQ, lol

zoo and stuff

2006-09-18T02:16:01Z

Worst zoo day ever. Note to self: do NOT go to the zoo on a Sunday.. or Saturday for that matter. Everyone and their brother was there.. screaming children.. horrid crowds... gangsters with their posse's. ugh. I loved those parents that have their squirming children on top of their shoulders that slowly eased in behind us and SHRIEKED: "HEY LOOK 'insert name' THEY'RE DRAWING THE ANIMALS! ISNT THAT GREAT YOU COULD DO THAT SOMEDAY"
like wtf. get the fuck away before my ears bleed onto your infant. or I stab him with my mechanical pencil.
Some kid nearly fell into the ape exhibit. He was climbing on the wooden posts and was using Shane, for a second, as a shimmying device to get to the top. All Shane had to do was nudge his little bottom and PLOP! OH NOES EATEN ALIVE BY CHIMPS.
Anyhow. We had to leav early because my camera ran out of batteries and froze with the shutter open. Didn't even get to see the Tapirs >( But the new baby giraffe is ADORABLE. And growing an eighth of an inch a day :D and the baby chimp is too cute for words. Also.. new white alligator in the front next to the seals.. pretty cool. Would look even cooler in it's natural habitat. bahhh.

There are fires all around and my eyes are -killing- me. All the wind is blowing in the ashes. it's terrible.

bless you Steve

2006-09-06T05:44:32Z

I've been crying off and on for the past couple of days.
Today it's really sinking in. Bless Steve Irwin.. he is a saint in my book. My thoughts go out to Terry and the children.
I can't even write about this right now

stolen from mooner

2006-01-12T08:35:50Z

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. weirdest food you like:
14. do farts make you laugh:

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.

little dilemna.. could use some input

2005-08-04T01:32:08Z

I mentioned in a previous entry that the little girl I used to babysit had a very bad accident and will now have to recieve facial reconstructive surgery for a good portion of her life..

Now, I want to make her a card. But I'm very confused on what I should draw.

I was originally thinking of drawing some sort of injured animal (cartoony/cute with a bandaid somewhere) but I'm not sure what message that would send. I've never done a get well card for such a serious injury... and I'd really appreciate some input.

thanks

Embers-we're burning bridges down

2005-05-25T19:42:26Z

Yesterday was SO very random.
After I left my glue-trap of a computer desk I headed to Empire Skate. But ran into Francis and Deever along the way at Del Smell. Had a bite and a chat, they rode their bikes back to Frank's.
I continued on my journey for Sal-ism. Went to the store... and alas... he was not there ;; But some other dude Phil, who's from Malibu, was working. lord knows how he found the place from Malibu.... but he was very nice. We watched Simpsons and prank called Sal looking for "Empire Mexico".
I bid farewell to dear Phil and left to... drive around aimlessly.
But I ended up running into Sepulveda, who was with Kyle... and they were on their way to the other Kyle's... my next door neighbor.
So we drove to Cig Zone because they wanted cigarettes, and ended up running into John. who was on his bike looking for Frank XD
anyway, we all ended up at Kyle's.
Kyle and Mel brought out the samurai swords/staffs and various other objects that inflict much pain, and everyone grabbed a weapon and started swinging XD
I left awhile later to hang out with Eve and Aurelie.
Tracy called me about Allegrio and I'm set to ride him this afternoon. She and I were talking on the phone, and out of nowhere, she asks how old I am. I told her 19... and she proceeded to ask me if I had a boyfriend. I said no, not since Wesley... like three months ago. So then she asks if I'd be interested in going on a blind date with her co-worker who's about to turn 25.
I said sure... what's there to lose?
I'm not even looking into the whole relationship thing right now. I have college coming up, and Phantom needs constant attention. And so will Allegrio. so whatever. if there's a boy, then there's a boy... if not. no big.
I've never even been on a blind date .. it might be fun X)

Wesley called me yesterday. We talked foreeeeverrr. thank goodness I have free long distance X_X I told him the happenings, he told me about his life. He's doing really well for himself. I'm happy. He has two apartments, a steady job, good friends, and a nice car. I REALLY couldn't be happier for him... out here he was always stressed/depressed... but I really think he's turned around. I think I still love him.. in some small way.

Then...Eve, Aurelie and I cruised Sunset. Went to the Hustler store... again. Hit up aahs! because that store is just TOO cooky X) Eve got batman boxers and a carebear shirt. Then we blazed ourselves retarded and ate at a place called Wacky Waffles. All I could think about was JthM .. I was looking for sporks to stick in someone's eye XDDD The music there was so terrible.. that if I actually DID find a spork.. I probably would have stabbed my eardrums instead. On the way out, Eve and I raided their DumDum basket and came up on like 30 lollipops. We had the car parked outside... and some dude comes up saying he's the parking attendant and how we owe him three dollars for parking there... and how he charged the people before us $10 and how he was giving us a bargain. WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT. So we gave him a lollipop and drove away.

Today shall consist of
-establishing credit! bowtomewellsfargo.
-riding Allegrio
-hopefully going to the Mac store. I need to get my iPod -hooked- up.

holy crap i just noticed my shoulders are sluffing hardcore. I don't learn my lesson. I just HAD to go frolic in the sun without my SPF 5000

and now...

Mae- Embers and Envelopes

We write to apologize
We ask to look past life as it goes by
I know you have sacrificed
Time, life, love- time to fly
Please consider all things trite
Forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by
I know to have something like this broken is hard to fix

Embers- we're burning bridges down
Envelopes- stuffed with feelings found
We write things down as means to reconcile

We write to patch things up
Maybe not to agree but to proclaim love
Let's look ahead and then
We'll see the One who's glory never ends
And based on that we'll see
There will be room for change but gradually
I know to have something like this broken is hard to fix

If all is said and done and over
If we don't have to
We're not going to
Make the change it's worth a try
What's broken can be fixed tonight

for the love of God, if you haven't heard them... please go download a song

..

2005-05-15T22:39:22Z

Aurelie just found out that Alex was cheating on her the whole time they were together.
year and a half.
more than 5 girls.. says Alex's dad.
CJ just showed her pictures.

Karma.. man. karma. *chills*

no more

2004-11-20T17:53:16Z

due to recent events I will no longer be updating this journal.
My parents are kicking me out. Those who are fortunate enough to have my number/email will be the only ones I will remain in contact with. I'm sorry. I'm avoiding contact with everyone at this point.

yessssssssss

2004-11-19T19:08:31Z

I got a joooooooob X))) 'nother petstore.. this one's even closer to me X) The lady called this morning, and I told her I was going to Pierce to register for some classes, but that I could start Monday. and she was SO sweet ;; she told me to call her back with my class schedule so she can work around it for me ;;;;;; bless her heart. I think I'll really enjoy this job.

I'm currently waiting on Johnathan so we can go register together. Cuz I get all scrd with that kind of stuff ;; lots of people bumbling about.. trying to get counseling appointments. not my kind of fun.
it appears as if the seams are starting to come together here. hm.
if -only- I knew what classes I want to take X)

Heh. Aurelie and I went to the park yesterday.. sat in the car for a bit and talked. Then some kids parked next to us. and called us smokers.. I called them hypocrites. they were there, the saaaame reason we were. This one kid started claiming this A-town gang or whatever.. he was clearly off his rocker. I found the whole thing hilarious. The more I laughed.. the pissier he got, and apparently he'd had enough. He got back in the car after we had "discussed" our affiliations and proceeded to pull a hand gun out. his friend drove away... a smart move.
Before this.. I was at Merchant's house and things were about to start getting good. god damnit, Aurelie interrupts me and then I get a gun pulled on me. wtf. last night was fucking lame. And I was too shy/shaken up to go back and ring his doorbell. So we went to McDonalds instead and ate our troubles away.
I plan on continuing last night's talking with Merchant today. he's so wondahful

edit: forgot to mention John's pitbull bit me pretty good yesterday. I saw it coming. *brick*

arian_sfv @ 2004-11-11T21:06:00

2004-11-12T05:03:54Z

brittany from Guilt by Association is on MTV.
chatsworth has officially sold out.

arian_sfv @ 2004-11-11T13:35:00

2004-11-11T21:43:09Z

FUCKING MAKE IT STOP
I can't stop crying. and I can't catch my breath.
I really wish I weren't born. I wish I never aged enough to meet him. I wish he would just fucking vanish.
I wish an airplane engine would crash into my house and just kill me already.
kill me while I still believe that he's meant for me.
i hate him. *trembles uncontrollably*

trying not to bury myself in depression here, but..

2004-11-03T22:25:29Z

a good friend of mine.. and Jonathan's.. committed suicide last Thursday.
This guy pretty much patented one of my nicknames. We had classes together since he first moved here back when we were in 7th grade. We were also each other's homework backup, whenever the other didn't finish the assignment.. we'd always have the homework thing worked out between the two of us so we'd both get the grade.
I really didn't want to post this. but again, life goes on, and this is something I'd like to look back on.
He did this over a girl he'd been dating for two years..
Mary says it best. it's selfish. there are so many wonderful things to enjoy in this life, even if they come with consequences.... they must be dealt with in another way. any other way than suicide. Things can't be so bad that you have to kill yourself. come on.
I'm really not okay with the fact that I've lost two friends at such a young age.
That's probably why I tell everyone to drive safely. *sigh*

HAHAHA

2004-09-26T00:56:11Z

AHSHSDGXSFV!1111 Melanie just ran away from Kyle's next door. HAHAHA GOOO!! RUN FARFARAWAY bahahahahaha
i hope they break up i swear i'm sick of hearing them screaming at each other. e__e

okay kids

2004-03-10T03:29:35Z

Here's the drill.
If you want to be added, post here. I'll be posting in this journal from now on... unless I decide it is lame.